Feelin’ lonely
Today is just an ordinary day. woke up at reasonable time. had breakfast. go to friday prayer. then went for a movie with a friend, we watched Mr and Mrs Smith starring Pitt & Jolie. the movie was awesome ! so cool…very very cool ..love it so much.
Then, things started to feel less ordinary.
On the way home after watching the movie, i felt lonely. i know here in the UK, i do get this feeling sometimes. I miss my friends, i miss my family. when i was going out having fun, i always remember my best friends back home. we used to go out and have fun togerther. i miss them so much. and due to that feeling, i feel very lonely.
to add to the feeling, when i arrived home, sitting in my room and i realised that i miss my family. here i was, sitting in my room. alone. If i was home in Malaysia, there’s always my family to talk to. at least it occupies my time and help me to get through the day. but here, there’s no family, and i am all alone.
My flatmate invited his friends to come over and he ordered satay ( of course - not halal) from a local takeaway. the smell of that satay reminds me of home…what a situation to add to my lonely feeling.
I always cherish living here in Edinburgh, and i always joking to my friends that i dont want to go back. dont get me wrong, i love Malaysia but i love this country too, the 4 seasons, the scenery…but i guess, it doesn’t have my family and my best friends….so eventually, what or who do I need the most ? hmmmm…..
In short, i am lonely. today. i miss home, i miss Malaysia. at this point i want to have satay too !
but..currently i am so far away from HOME. Nothing can be done except writing about it in this BLOG of mine.
- Iz OUT -
