What’s Next ?
I’ve passed my courses. have to proceed with dissertation, and hope to graduate and attending the convocation in November…then…what’s next?
My friend Shay will be leaving Boston soon, for good. When he told me this, i was trying to imagine me, 6 months from now. With the hope that i will succeed in this LL.M thingy, soon i’ll be experiencing the same thing..going back home..for good.
I know i miss home, but i think i am not ready yet to go back. Not that i dont want to go back, but i just wanna have more time here, maybe working and experiencing LIFE in this foreign country. I love this city very very much. I was planning to work kejap, kumpul pound sterling and then only go back. but, that is only MY plan.
Yesterday my mom called and told me that she wanted me to go home soon after my graduation ceremony. The reason : Family. She said, duit boleh carik, but masa dgn family tak leh. she’s right. Further, my grandma is very old and she misses me too, and i miss her too. FYI, i am very close with my grandma coz she took care of me from day 1. she lives with our family until I was 7. My mom told me, umur kita tak tau, duit if kita kejar, sampai bila bila pun takkan cukup. she’s right. Again.
Today, i woke up and be able to digest whatever she said. I was planning to work here first, and enjoy this UK life. I love it very much. But i guess, we have to sacrifice our need for the sake of others, especially our family. They have given us so many things, so this is time for us to give back to them and not thinking of our own ‘agenda’.
So..it means that i am going to leave Edinburgh, at the end of the year. I wont be able to see another spring or summer,or any snow, although i hope i may experience another autumn and winter. It is obligatory to obey our parent, especially our mother, and i do hope that ALLAH will give me something BIG for being anak yang taat…(hehehe).
In the meantime, i better cherish this time, coz one fine day, i’ll be packing my back and leave…for good.
-Iz OUT-
June 24th, 2005 at 5:14 pm
It is not easy making sacrifices for other people. Although we honestly and with a heavy heart make the sacrifices; but at the end of our mind we’ll be thinking…’wish i had that; done that’.
But if not now; soon, we will realize that we make these sacrifices bcoz our family is the essence of our lives.The seed of our happiness; the umbrella on a rainy afternoon.